How?
I know everything's in God's hands, part of his big plan, I should just let him steer me out of doubt, But why do I find it so hard to move on.
so many things to tell you but i havent got the guts to. Besides, it's hard to forget all the times you made me laugh when I didn't even want to smile.
written at 4:24 AM
Like a rose.
Though any other breath, the silence kills one sigh, will fly away my burning tears, burning bright; my forever love will conquer all and all that's ours is more than great the greatest love of all.
But our future will be bleak.
As any other rose, my love will one day, will wilt away his greying years, greying light; his soft red cheeks will dim and fall and all that's left is nothing much nothing much at all.
and the mayhem fails to cease.
written at 3:02 PM
Don't you remember,
peanut butter and jelly sanwiches, sunshine and starshine, blackberry and rasberry jam, similiar toe infections, how you'd give me 80891 pink roses, how you'd beg me not to pout, how I'd beg you not to leave, our tree that we'd climb, that you'd scratch yourself on, how I'd hand you band-aids for your booboos, how we'd run away and still be here, how you'd swallow virtually anything, dynamite, a whole cliff, candycanes, when you'd compliment me unnecessarily, and I'd blush, and you'd do it again, "what's green and has 4 wheels?" "A frog. I lied about the wheels." all the racist jokes, how you were sad and I could tell, and I wrote you a poem about seabirds and sky, and I'd draw you pictures of our tree, and you, me and patrick star, fruigetables: orange pumpkins and tomatoes, how the moon was a special place to us, how I'd concuss myself on cookie monster's eyeballs, and you'd laugh, and you'd pick up basketballs with one hand, and I'd try and you'd laugh, cause my hands were too small, how you'd never let me touch your hair, how we laughed at pokemon costumes, and how the actors danced, especially the chicken one, how you told me I was beautiful, and I never believed you, when I'd cry, you'd comfort, when I had nightmares, you'd comfort too, how you'd fart and I'd go hahahahahahahahahhaha, how we never get to say 'good night', how you'd suddenly, out of the blue, text me and say the moon reminded you of me, and how we once were. How I went away, and we drifted apart, how you couldn't find the words anymore, how "she'd fucking scream her fucking ass off at you", how short they've have become, how I can't face you this way, and how you can't remember.
everything we had is no longer there. If it was there in the first place.
written at 6:05 AM
Maybe baby, we've got it all wrong.
This post shall be a series of random lines that sum up certain feelings I've had recently, or particular thoughts I've harboured for some time. Don't ask me what they represent, cause I'm having trouble understanding them, myself.
I've never been this close to anyone or anything // I don't know how you do what you do (I'm so in love with you). The way you whisper in the dark.
I've always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry // I've never felt this way before; Everything that I do reminds me of you. // I love the things that you do.
Baby, you're my favourite waste of time.
I've been thinking everyday about you Don't fit anywhere into my life, but that's okay 'Cause I think I might be right for you And because of that, I'm not scared at all And everyone says I'm crazy And everyone says I'm a fool // Please don't leave me standing With my heart in my hand I can't last here I'm breaking down, And no on understands why I got here But I knew from the very first moment That I met you You'd be the one Would you meet me by the water tonight Would you please fall asleep Holding my hand 'Cause I've got everything in store for you, baby
I know a place where we can hide out And turn our hearts inside out They won't know who we are.
I wonder if you know that's how I feel about you I hope you know, Cause I have so much love for you, do with it what you will And I have nothing more to prove, say to me what you will. Say, say it again. // And I hope you feel the same way too (about me.)
There's no rain, there's no storm Though the blue sky makes you wonder. // Sure enough, seasons change But don't let today get lost 'Cause today the sun's on us.
I think I lost my mind Back there and then Oh, how I let my feelings go.
