If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side.
written at 9:48 AM
where I wanna take you.
I wanna take you to a place that means a lot to me, its
on a bridge, near my second home in S'hertogenbosch, its
cold, but I'll be there to hold your hands, its
beautiful, with willows on both banks of the river, its
quiet, where we'll whisper wishes fervent, its
where the sky shines, always and forever, its
how I want to feel, always and forever, its
where I wanna take you.
written at 1:24 PM
Every time.
I want to cry,
But I don't. I've realised
How stupid I was to fall for
Your jokes, your gestures,
Your treats, your kindness,
Your smile.
Every time I think about where it went,
I want to cry,
But I don't. I can't believe
How it was so abrupt, and how
You still acted like nothing
Changed, you still
Did it normally, like you normally did.
Classmate. Girlfriend.
Ex-girlfriend.
Every time I think about what you said,
I want to cry,
But I don't. You never
Made me anything, only this once:
You folded me a paper heart after
I folded you one first, and when
I folded you a second the following week,
You didn't fold one back. I recall,
You said "Huh? Another one?"
It tore my real heart apart.
And now
Every time I think about what we had,
Where it went,
What you said,
And everything I thought we could be,
I want to cry,
But I don't. Because
I won't.
written at 1:31 PM